... and the direction of my art.

So yeah, so much for requests and humanised Minx... Now to be fair, I did spend a week in France snowboarding and since getting back the weeks have flown by in the blink of an eye, and this hasn't been helped by work being cracked up to eleven. Heck, last weekend I got back from work, watched a movie then went to bed and didn't get up until about twelve hours later. And if I'm not at work or sleeping, I'm trying to meet up with friends and just generally work on my social life.

Now even though I took some requests a few months back and chose to do a final send off for an old OC, I'm finding it difficult to put pencil to paper. Part of it granted is due to my ideally needing a reference for pose and/or design and due to me drawing downstairs, away from my computer, that is difficult. Plus getting the motivation can be a pain. However, there is also one last thing I have niggling away at the back of my mind - ecchi/artistic nudity.

Those of you who remember my Caracal days may recall this was the direction my gallery took for the last six or so months of my activity. As I've said before, this was a dark time in my life; I had no real social life or confidence in myself, had a really low opinion of myself and started to believe I couldn't achieve what I wanted. That thankfully changed and the memories of who I was has inspired me to branch out and try as many new things and aim for a "say no" attitude. Sufficed to say the post-Uni to mid 2008 Peter is something I'd NEVER go back to and while I admit some permanent changes (i.e. my chipped tooth) means I can never purely become him, it's still something I fear. And I'll be honest when I say that taking that direction in my art again makes me feel like it's another "lock" I'd break on the door to my old self.

I love the female body; I think it's one of the most beautiful things in the world. Yes I admit I love it partly for the reasons any red blooded male would but I also see a form of natural beauty that I wish for my art to represent. I have a small collection of favorites, consisting of both photos and drawings that I feel truly capture this and when I see pictures like [link] [link] and [link] it inspires me to try my own attempt at it. However skill level aside, I know full well that in the end, my old gallery became less "the beauty of the body" and more "bewbies are awesome =B"; like I said, I feel it's an aspect of my old personality that I want NOTHING to do with, but at the same time I feel I'm risking it by thinking it. Additionally I like to show my artwork to colleagues and friends, and while I have been known to pass around my DA link as an example of my work, I do tend to pass around my tumblr link more often, and I have started to link the two together. So if I draw say a topless Mewrah picture, such as having her stand their, shirt in hand as she feels the wind (which is her element for those who don't know) caress her body and skin, is it something as beautiful as my examples, will people who gain access to this page one way or another think I'm disgusting (yes I shouldn't let others affect my art; it is my art after all but I am scared of losing the little - medium sized social circle I have) and is it taking the step backwards that I fear it is? Or would drawing it release me from this creative block and hopefully allow me to move forward?

As always, I put this to the wisdom of my watchers; as always I appreciate your help and advice.