As the title says, I may be taking a break for the remainder of June.
Put simply, I've not been feeling inspired recently. It's hard to fully explain why but I think I've mostly been tired and burnt out, mainly due to work but also perhaps the weather. I'm not a big fan of excess heat, so this time of year is never overly comfortable for me. Combined with me living in a ground floor (or first floor in some countries) apartment, sleeping with the large bay windows open obviously isn't an option, especially as friends have been able to climb in through them when they've come to visit. On top of that I've been feeling very burnt out from work due to the constant pressure and workload that my team faces, especially when I'm expected to drop everything in favour of an "urgent" issue, regardless of how much work it is and/or if it means I'll have to stay late. Thankfully I have some time off starting on Wednesday and outside of getting some work done on my car and an out of town friend visiting I don't have much planned.
I've been chatting about this with the ever wonderful Nocturnaliss
and we both agree that this is likely the cause of my depleted inspiration, as well as my fear of making something bad and being unable to fix it (which applies more to traditional than digital), making me unmotivated to pick up the pencil and draw something. She's also suggested it's possible my current process of traditional to digital with little room for anything else may have done more to curb my desire than I expected has helped me burn out. My approach has also been to "hit my head against the wall, and if I get dizzy, have a nap until I feel better, then try again
" which is another way of describing the definition of insanity. Finally, she also pointed out that I may be in my rut because I'm trying to draw what I feel I have
to, rather than what
I want to. Often side picture ideas I have get pushed onto the back burner in favour of my "main picture" which could be another reason why my approach may have contributed to my burn out.
So what DO
I want to draw? Honestly, I'm not sure. After getting back into Breath of the Wild after a good month to six weeks break, I finally made my way to where the Gerudo are. This lead to me thinking that Morgan's Amazonian tribe could perhaps be desert based, allowing me to give them some Arabian elements as well. I've been wanting to re-design Morgan for a while, modifying her trousers and both changing up her weapons (I'm thinking a scimitar) and colour palette so that may give me some new options, as well as what to do with her sister Aleria. I've also been thinking quite a bit about what to do with the Sunlight Fiend Sinxtor. I have some possible clothes lined up for her and, as I want to start commissioning artists to draw her in the not too distant future, it would be better to have at least a concept sketch.
And I do still want to draw Alexis and the other Gift Art pictures. RedRidah has been an all round amazing artist, both in turns of his own support as well as the excellent commissions he's done for me (I should probably feature them soon). I'll get more into it when I come to draw them, but the last few he's done for me involve him either modifying or re-designing some of my OCs, with his rendition being the "ground work" for future pieces I and others will draw. I can't explain how grateful I am for all the amazing work he's done more me so I definitely want to say my thanks by drawing Alexis and his other OCs in the future.
However, all of that will likely have to wait for a few more days as I want to relax and regain some of my energy.
I can't believe it's already June... This year is flying by and it also means it'll be my birthday soon.
The second gift art piece, kaeveris
' Ysemea is done and I have to say, outside of a few niggling issues, I'm happy with how this one turned out.
There are a few mistakes I made to her design, such as how I drew the braids so I would like to draw her again some day to try and rectify that.
Next up is Alexis for RedRidah
. I mostly plan to stay close to his design, though we have discussed modifications he'd make to her design. I plan to include them in the piece I'll be drawing, as well as maybe a few changes of my own. RedRidah
has also given me a pose suggestion -
- and I'm looking forward to working on a more casual, non action focused pose. This will also be the last Gift Art picture I draw few a few months, as I want to draw some of my OCs again soon. A number of artists have helped me re-design Snow slightly and I'm really keen to produce a new picture of her to show it off, but I'll go into more detail when I'm ready to start work on it.
I'd also like to do more simple "Preview" pictures of my OCs, similar to Season 2 Preview - Amber Blake
piece I did a few months. I plan for these to have simple poses, as the focus is more on the design of the character and providing a reference for others to work with, something Nocturnaliss
has suggested I do. Part of my problem with more complicated poses is if limb placement or the way the body faces causes aspects to be obscured from the viewer. As I like to commission artists to draw my OCs, I want a single "Here is everything you need
" picture people can work from, rather than saying "I want you to take A from picture 1, B from picture 2, C and D from picture 3....
". And in turn this will allow me to start playing around with more adventurous poses without worrying about blocking an element of their design.
I may also look at starting a doing some kind of beach pin up pic. If you've seen the work artists like DarklyWhite
have done for me, you'll know I love the idea of seeing my OCs wear swim suits, regardless of how much skin is on display. I've seen a few artists out there do "Various characters in swim suits
" projects and I've always wanted to do one myself, perhaps with other artist's OCs as well. Whether or not the characters will be topless or not remains to be seen (especially if I draw other people's characters). I'd be tempted to draw them wearing a full swim suit and either do a separate, topless picture or if I re-draw them digitally, a topless variant on that.
I do see these pictures are more "filler images", for the evenings where I don't have the energy and focus to work on my main picture, or maybe as "warm up sketches" before working on a project or to simply relax with a pencil and paper. I will be having some time off for my birthday so it's possible I may be able to focus on some of them as well but if past weeks off are anything to go by I'll likely find myself sleeping in to try and catch up on lost sleep and last minute changes to my plans will eat up my time, so I'm not holding my breath.
Inspired by Nocturnaliss
, I've decided to start my own WordPress page to store information about my OCs - pawcanada.wordpress.com/
. I'm hoping to expand it to include information about my world as well, such as it's history, a glossary and other elaborations and explanations. I'm in the middle of writing up an entry for Snow, though I put it on hold a few weeks ago. I've also been recently talking to Jeriv
about my world so I may post some of the details I've written to him.