General Update

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Hello all.

So it's been a while since I last did an update. To be honest, I've been both busy and not feeling very artistic. Sure I've had numerious ideas and concepts I wanted to draw and get off the ground, but for one reason or another I've just not been able to. Admittedly I did sketch a few things during a train journey a few weekends back but I've yet to either go back to and work on those sketches or scan them to re-work them digitally. I have got this week off, for reasons I'll go into in a minute, and while my hopes have been to work on some pictures, I'll admit I've yet to really crack on.

As you may have noticed, today is my birthday and I have turned the ripe old age of 30. It's weird saying this as I still feel like I'm in my mid to late 20's, particuarly as my life isn't quite where I wanted it to be when I reached this age. However considering the pressure I was putting on myself to achieve such goals adding more fuel to my anxiety as well as not appreciating all I have managed to achieve I have been trying to look past such "failures" over the last few years. I would like to thank CMBaggs for extending my premium membership by a further three months; I certainly wasn't expecting it and greatly appreciate her gift. For a couple of months I will admit I had viewed my 30th as a giant plaster I needed to just rip off so I could get on with my life and now that, as well as my big pre-30 celebrations are both done and dusted I'm hoping it'll take off any of the self inflicted pressure I've been putting on myself, allowing my creativity to spark again.

As I said earlier, I have had a few ideas and concepts I'm trying to get off the ground and I am even looking at returning to and re-working a few of my older pieces, such as Morning Snow although I'm now envisioning her walking around like she's just gotten up as opposed to lying in bed. It was inspired by a piece I saw online a few days ago (the piece in question is NSFW and arguable may be consider more hardcore/pervy than what I'm aiming for so if you wish to see it please send me a note) and after liking the shape of one of the women's bodies and her pose, felt a re-worked version of Morning Snow would work well. I am also trying to modify Snow's design a little, aiming for the hair style to match some of the other depictions people have done recently (which you can see below) as well as maybe modify the design a little. In the past I tried to write her as more of a tomboy but I feel the design choices and direction I've gone for with her doesn't really correlate with the characteristics or behaviors of one. I will admit someone did call me out on this a while back, which is why I've been re-considering the direction for a while now and the more I think about it, the more I feel it may fit in more with what I have in mind for Mewrah.
Art trade - Snow Theora by ZAKKIDO<da:thumb id="456989183"/><da:thumb id="458529413"/><da:thumb id="460615483"/>

I should mention that, yes, I am still planning on doing my art trades. However I do feel that trying to force myself to do them is what has helped put me into my current block. I feel bad for not having done the ones I owe, even to those who have been polite enough to understand and wait but I just find it difficult to get the parts moving and when I do, I find the creativity doesn't seem to want to come along for the ridefrustrated.

Finally I may be dropping the whole "weekly update" concept, at least for the foreseeable future. There are a handful of people I have still to feature and I do plan on doing so at some point in the future, but as most of my journals haven't really been resulting in me saying combined with the fact I can go a few weeks without doing one and STILL don't have anything to say suggests it may not be worth doing, at least for the moment. Plus it does allow me to do some of the other side projects, like bringing back the "Who Is..." journals, as well as a "General Trivia about my OCs", a concept I was considering a few weeks back.

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CMBaggs's avatar
Happy birthday, buddy! The membership was a BDay gift.

And no worries on that art trade. Really. I'm totally empathetic to the strain of feeling 'art pressure'. I get into funks where it's enough to shut me down. Which is why I avoid accepting them. Hell, it's also why I will never accept payment for a commission until I'm finished. I'm just too flightly to do art professionally. ;)